I lurve food. Yet I can't eat much of what I really like these days cos' of the slimming program. But yes I lurve food. Why did you think I got fat before? But yeah, today me and my coworkers ate at Sakae Sushi for lunch and I still so wanna eat the stuff I had there again (it's not the first time I ate there tho'). A lot of my friends say this place is just okay, and their sushi ain't that great. Well, I'm not a sushi master and I dunno what's 'great', but as far as I'm concerned I still loved what I had:

I've had the okonomiyaki and the fried hotate before so only the soft shell crab sushi is new to me today. Man it was yummy! *_* I'd have eaten so much more if I can... T__T I also found these next few on their menu that I really wanna try but didn't/couldn't, but I swear I will once my treatment's over. =D (I've tried the takoyaki before but I think I wanna try it again =P)

Graaahh!! FOOOOD!!! T__T I wanna eat my favorite stuff again!! (and as much as I want XD) If only I have the metabolism of those people who eat like a dozen cows yet doesn't gain a pound. On a related note, I also really love these two dishes that my family makes pretty often at home; they both happen to be veggies =)

The one on the left is buncis (I don't know what it's called in English) with eggs. It is so simple yet man....! I LOVE it!! The next one is labusiam (chayoke in English and Fo Shou Gua in Mandarin), which is actually more a fruit than a vegetable. But seriously, if say the world is gonna die in 5 minutes and I can magically make ONE dish appear as my last meal, it'd definitely have to be, specifically, my grandma's shark's fin soup (without the shark). Period.

Rant: Depression?
There's this one question that has baffled me since yesterday afternoon. I've asked many people about it and 90% of them disagreed with me, and I just can't see the logic behind it. You see, I have a friend who's currently depressed. I don't know the reason and it doesn't matter, cos' point is, because she's depressed, she says she wants to be left alone for the rest of the month.

You see, I know that that's always the case. Each time I hear someone's depressed, the natural, or rather, expected reaction I (should) give is obviously “I'm sorry, should I leave you alone then?”. However, the thing is, even though that's my own reaction I don't understand WHY people want to be left alone when they're bloody depressed. I just know that apparently most everyone just prefers to be alone. NOT that I'm saying I want to bug them cos' hell it's NO fun bugging someone who's all moody and emo, but personally when I'm depressed, I WANT to BE with people.  

If you're already down and depressed as hell, why the hell would you want to worsen it by being alone, hence having all the time to think and mourn about yourself? Is it really that cool to be like all solitary while you depress yourself even more by thinking about how much your current life sucks and the sort? (Assuming your depression is not brought about by being with people) If I'm depressed and alone, my head would just keep replaying and reminding me of the shit that's depressing me. I suppose I can choose to, say, play video games alone in my room but it doesn't change the fact that I'm alone and my mind would still stray off on its own.  

I think, interaction with people gets my mind off things. When you talk with others, things are no longer just all about you, unless of cos’ you're talking to them about yourself (d'oh!?). But when it's not all just about you, or when the topic is about something unrelated to the cause of your depression like say the movies or something, don't you feel like you're granted some period of 'peace' and that you can get away from depression for at least a while and be happy? O_o 

I'm pessimistic so I'll assume anyone who's reading this would disagree with me and tell me that if you were depressed, you'd oh-so-totally wanna be alone. And that's okay, cos' it's none of my business and I respect however way you decide to deal with your own problems. But still, it 'amazes' me. My coworker told me this: “You already feel so down when you're depressed. If you have people around you it'd be annoying and they could frustrate you even more.” Er.... okay. So, I guess my question is, why does being with people necessarily mean they'd annoy or frustrate you? What? Do your friends specifically talk to you when you're depressed just so they can piss you off? Are they annoying becos' they asked you if you wanna go watch a movie with them?  

Anyway, end of rant. You guys get the point, regardless if you agree or not.  

Dream log
Next, duuuuuuuuude. I dreamt of some of the awesomost dreams I've had in my life yesterday morning. Guess who's involved?? *_* GRIMMJOW and Ulquiorra!! <3!!!! Mwahahhahaa!! Guess my fantasies about raping Grimmjow helped some bit? =P However, they aren't the only characters in the story (altho' they are the only two official Bleach characters in it). There was Ulquiorra's dad (LOLWTF) who apparently is this hawt looking man in classy white suit with light vertical stripes, and in his early 30s. Grimmjow's mom, on the other hand, is a horizontally challenged lady in a light blue (I think?) dress. Ulquiorra also looks a tad younger than he originally is (maybe 15-16), although Grimmjow looks exactly the same (17-19), only with a white blouse shirt and black/grey pants like those of a typical student uniform.  

So in the dream, apparently Ulquiorra and his dad (who doesn't have a name but I swear he looks like a friggin' cooler/manlier version of Ryuuken aka Ishida's dad) are of the mafia. So I assumed that his dad's prolly the leader of his clan, and Ulquiorra's just there cos' he's there, really. I dunno the reason why but it seemed that Ulquiorra and his dad were trying to capture Grimmjow. In order to save her own son, Grimmjow's mom took him and fled. And so one night they were staying over at some weird-looking motel place, but Grimmjow's mom sensed that the mafia were coming again and tried to hide themselves in the cupboard in the motel room =_=;; But alas, the mafia came in and found them anyway. Duh. >_>;

Ulquiorra and his dad stood by the door and looked in. (Ulquiorra was wearing a white winter coat, the kind with fur around the hood LOL, with a hand on the zipper; his typical pose) Two of their henchmen had just pulled Grimmjow out of the cupboard and were dragging him over to the dad while Grimmjow's mom who was entirely neglected begged for them to release her son. Grimmjow snarled at the baddies, a typical Grimmjow expression XD, but he's at their mercy now so it's no use, really. And so Grimmjow snarled at Ulquiorra's dad as the dad studied Grimmjow's expressions or something and smirked. Then like ZOMFG!!! Even as an 'audience' in the dream I was shocked, but pleased as hell, to see what happened. LAWLZ. 

Ulquiorra's dad pulled Grimmjow's face over by the chin and kissed him. LOOOOOOOL!!!! I LOVE MY MIND!!!! XDXDXDXD!!! I was shocked, and so was Grimmjow. LOL. But it was a brief kiss, so Grimmjow didn't react too much other than simply being shocked. Ulquiorra, who was right beside them, just kept staring blankly with his usual emo face. Reactionless. XD! And after the kiss, Ulquiorra's dad ordered his men to take Grimmjow out, into their car or something I guess. After then they walked out of the motel, leaving Grimmjow's poor mom alone behind. That's it. But WAHAHAHAA!!! As far as I'm concerned it was awesome!! I was totally not expecting that myself! Also, I suppose even tho' it wasn't explained in the dream, I can now tell why Ulquiorra's dad wants to kidnap Grimmjow. XP If only my mind has the ability to resume a dream.... *SIGH* 

Actually, I think it does, but for a different dream that I had several months ago. And this one's a bad one, cos it's another one of those 'world enders' (dreams whereby it's the end of the world and you're gonna die along with it). I remember writing about a world ender dream in this blog before (I get those dreams once in a while), but the dream that resumed this time is of another I didn't write about cos' I've practically forgotten about it until yesterday when it resumed, sort of.  

The first 'episode' of the dream was about some black-purple looking supernatural black hole or electromagnetic force or some shit in the sky (think sci-fi) that got bigger and bigger and eventually it'll obliterate everything it touches. In the dream, I was still a young girl, like 10-12 years old or so, and I was still staying at the old apartment in Pearl Bank (Outram) with my grandma and cousins and all. The sky grew dark cos' of that weird black hole thing enlarging by the second and I was sitting by the window staring at it as I counted down the last few seconds of my life. Seriously, dude, you have no idea how fuckin' scary that is if it were real.

The second episode was dreamt yesterday morning, and apparently, the world didn't die in episode 1. In the dream, I couldn't remember what happened exactly that saved us all but I knew that it was a miracle, only, I had no recollection of the details. The humans were glad that the miracle saved us but unfortunately, it wasn't long before the next catastrophe came along. A few years later (I looked 16-ish in the dream), I was walking along some beach (it didn't look like Singapore tho') with someone I have no idea who when I noticed that there was a monstrous wave coming from the horizon. When I said monstrous I meant EFFIN' SCI-FI MONSTROUS HUGE. It was bloody tall even when it was still on the horizon so it's gonna be like I dunno, 6000km tall when it reaches shore?!

Also, apparently. men had previously built some sort of stone blocks far in the horizon to prevent such waves or something but this one was so huge it was definitely going to crush and destroy those blocks, hence definitely going to kill us all anyway. >_>; So I was like staring at the wave, which would probably hit land in a few minutes, and thinking “Shit, the world's gonna die again.” Tho' I knew it was futile, I still told that someone I was with to run and inform the rest of the people that a giant wave is coming and that they should all run. And so that someone did (I don't even remember if it was a girl/boy) and everyone started to panic but er.... that's all I remembered. <_<; The dream sort of ended there, I think. Prolly cos' I was woken up by my niece cos' I had to go to work. LOL. But these world ender dreams usually end before my moment of death anyway, and I'm glad for it. Sigh, dreams can be so unpredictable and random, eh? 

Secondary school friends gathering
Next, I went for a Sec4 secondary school gathering this past Saturday, thanks to Jackie for organizing it. About 12 or so people showed up and I guess that's good enough, altho' I was expecting more to show some face and come =/. I've not seen a lot of them for 7 years since secondary school graduation, but all of them are still very recognizable; it's so nostalgic! 

We had dinner at Marche Resataurant at Vivo City (damn I LOVE their mushroom soup!), and after dinner we hung out at the arcade and the open area on the 3rd floor of Vivo until around 11pm. I wasn't even close with most of these people back in secondary school but the fact that we could hold a conversation just as easily shows a lot. Hence I was pretty pissed when some of those who didn't show up chose not to come just cos' "Oh, I feel weird hanging out with people I wasn't close with." Oh come on! That is so childish! And a load of bullshit. You simply refuse to give yourself the chance to open yourself to 'new people' (altho' they're not at all NEW cos' you bloody knew them even if you weren't close to them) and to give some face to the organizers who put in the effort to make this gathering possible. Not to mention that there are people who simply don't give a shit about 'old friends' anymore. Urgh. Hate it. 

Lastly, I can't wait till The Dark Knight is out!!! I'm not watching it on launch day cos' me and a friend decided to go for it next Monday. >_<!!! I'm itching to see Heath Ledger's performance as the Joker, and Christian Bale!!! <333 Kyaaaaa~~!!!

It's Singapore Cosfest 2008 (7th anniversary) this weekend and so I went to check it out, of course. I didn't wear a full-fledged Lolita dress this time cos' I have no new dress to wear and the event grounds is way too far this time (Pasir Ris). So instead I wore for the first time the new skirt and waist 'belt' thingy that I bought in Malaysia two months ago. I think it looked pretty okay...? ^^;

Anyway, I went crazy on the camera as usual... except this time I camwhored others instead of myself. =P There were many cosplayers, but I bet there're gonna be even more tomorrow cos' tomorrow's the big event; they're gonna be holding the official cosplay competition to choose the winners to compete in the international cosplay contest. Sounds big eh! Alas, I'm too tired/lazy to go check it out again tomorrow, so here're some of the cosplayers I managed to take photos of today. =)

The first cosplayers I met the moment I got there was this group consisting of Seifer, Kadaj and Yazoo from Final Fantasy. They were sitting in front of a cafe and I was like "Ah! PHOTO TYMEZ!" It was indoors so the lighting was bad, but since they were there I might as well take a photo. =D After that I met up with some of my friends who were there too, hence the two pics of me with Mabel who was wearing a new baby Lolita dress I've not seen her in.

While looking around the place, the next few cosplayers I saw were an Ishida and Ukitake from Bleach, along with three others from Dynasty Warriors I think. I wanted to take a photo of just the two Bleach boys but they were already posing with this guy I dunno who. Good thing I still managed to get a pic of just them two later. =)

And then I found some KOF cosplayers!! ^__^!! They had the entire Ikari team along with Adel. *Sigh* It feels so nostalgic each time I even think of that game! T__T A few minutes after that I saw this Gackt-- I mean... Genesis walking around. I took a few pics of him solo, but then Cloud came along. Mwahaha! It's really hard to get used to seeing Cloud holding a gun though... >_>; And then yeah, there was Sora. Of course.

And then ZOMG!!! There was this friggin' awesome dude - A for Anon from 4chan!! (Refer to the left most pic) LMAOZzzZZz *Dies* Well, those of you who know 'that movie' and 4chan would definitely find him bloody hilarious just as he is. He was casually walking around holding a boombox playing the Caramelldansen song. LMAOOZZ *Dies again* Simply put, he rules.

I dunno the characters/series in the 2nd pic but they looked cool so I took a photo. Check out their shoes. I swear it's a feet tall. The 3rd pic is just two random Lolita cosplayers I saw hanging around by the wall. (LOL) There weren't very many Lolita girls so I should take what I can get, especially when I'm a Lolita fan myself. The 4th pic is OMG.... the boys from super ultra classic Gundam Wing. @_@!! They remind me of so much... so much... XD!!! Oohh... the good ol' days....

Again, I dunno who the people are in the 1st pic. I don't even know if the left one is cosplaying but hell, white contact lens are hot when the right person wears them. =P And then there's my favorite, always, SWAT team. I dunno what's so captivating about them but they always get my attention in a cosplay event. I know, I know... they aren't exactly cosplaying anime/game characters, but their gear is just so awesome! (Especially those with fully covered faces) It could be becos' they remind me of the cool soldiers in sci-fi movies... or it could also be becos' they remind me of Hunk... >_>;; (if you know who I'm referring to of cos... =P)

In the 3rd pic, I asked them to pose with me like they were gonna attack me or something. One posed in the back with his gun pointed at me, so I asked the other one if he knows Metal Gear Solid. He said yeah, but when I asked if he knows CQC (Close Quarter Combat), he was like huh? Oh well >_>;; I had wanted him to maybe pose like he's gonna CQC me but oh well... However, I do look a tad too happy for someone who's supposedly getting pwnt, don't I? LOLZ. As for the 4th pic, it's just me and another group of Lolita girls. There really weren't many of them today...

Later I found a team from Rurouni Kenshin... and some other team from some... I-dunno-which anime. That girl (the cosplayer) with the green hair is everywhere though. I've seen her in all the cosplay events I've been to so far. O_o; And then I found Byakuya! And Ichigo. The Byakuya dude actually looks pretty good from his side (profile)... I think. =P

Hell, I found KOSMOS!!! @_@!! Like, OMG! Someone actually knows Xenosaga here in Singapore?? LOL. Next, there's the D Gray Man team... again. It's everywhere too. The 4th pic is I suppose the Rosen Maiden team (or mixed team?). I don't even know that anime to be honest, I just know its name cos' it's so popular here among the cosplayers. I've seen at least one of that left-most girl (in the pic) in every event. I suppose she's popular cos' it's like cosplaying + Lolita'ing at the same time, since that character's outfit is Lolita.

Then there was Cid from FF7 and Yuna from FFX-2. Cid was a little bit of a surprise but Yuna's pretty much standard appearance in any cosplay event. >_>;

Just as there weren't many Lolita girls this time, there also weren't many J-Rock/Visual-kei/Punk people. I found two talking, but there prolly weren't many more of them. After taking so many pics up to this point, me and my friend (we went there together) finally remembered that we hadn't taken a picture together, and so we did, along with Seifer whom we bumped into again. =P The 4th pic is of a girl I remember bumping into during Street Fest 2008 last month. If I'm not wrong she was the caucasian girl in the pink French maid dress with a plate of plastic cake (lol). Her dress is pretty, but I sure worry about it getting dirty if it was mine.

While looking even more around, I found a few Naruto cosplayers. Azuma looked pretty good if you ask me =) I had also asked Sasori and Kisame to pose a fighting pose but er... they kinda ended up with that, which is a little sad cos' Kisame's blocking the view of his own sword to his right >_>; Anyway, Tobi is awesome for doing what he's doing in the 3rd pic... =P That's just perfect. XD As for the last pic, it took me a split second to register who it might be until I remembered, "Hidan!" <3

Then... thanks to A for Anon, I assume, a large group of people randomly started to form a long train as they walked and danced around the lawn... to Caramelldansen again. LOL! It was a pretty fun sight, but I didn't join the train of course. Too busy taking pics on my end. XD

Before we forgot, I asked someone to help me and my friends take a group pic. The one wearing purple is a friend I met with later in the day, and the one wearing yellow is her friend. We had walked around together searching for cosplayers for maybe an hour. XD I dunno the giant... duck... (?), the girl and the priest (?) in the 2nd and 3rd pics, but no one would wanna miss that would they?

At around 5pm, we finally took our chance to enter the er... 'tent' where they were holding the events for the day like Karaoke competitions and the sort. It was insanely crowded earlier on and there was no way we could enter/wanna enter but by 5pm it got better. We looked around the booths a bit and later saw this graffiti wall full of anime drawings. So many artists in this world eh?

I also finally figured out what cosplayers this trio from the 2nd pic were. I saw the girl out by the lawn earlier on but I had no idea where she was from until the three of them stood together in front of a poster that blatantly says "Granado Espada". XD. It can't get any more obvious than that, especially when the armor seems to match...? I think...? Don't laugh if I'm wrong tho'. >_>;

There was also a whole team of Sailormoon girls, but unfortunately I didn't manage to take a shot of them when they were out on the lawn, so all I could take was a crappy shot of them on the stage during their dance performance or something. A few minutes later, we found L squatting on the floor staring at his deathnotes, two of them. LOL. I thought one is more than enough...? *Slinks away*

Lastly, I was sooo glad I managed to get the Arrancar team together, by luck, cos' the times I saw them they were either not together or they got away. I first just found Nel (the girl in green), but when I walked over to ask to take a pic of her I noticed she's got that... pumpkin dude beside her (dun remember his name), and Ichigo was just another two feet away, so I was like "Woot! Can I take a pic of you three?" So I did, and I took a photo with them after that. A few seconds later, two other girls asked to take a photo with them too, and that's when the other Arrancars happened to walk by. Nel saw them (they're all cosplay mates) and was like "Oi! Come join us!" and so yeah... =P LUCKY me. XD!! The last pic of Ulquiorra is taken specially just for an online friend who lurves him. =D Seriously, you gotta love that unzipping pose. XD!!